deep and dark abyss of rainbows

like an icecream, upside down.
i like music, cake and sunshine.

So it’s Reading Festival tomorrow and I look like an ugly dead fish who has been flailing around for a while in the sand, not an attractive look… What perfect timing. I don’t feel to good at the moment and I am also feeling very musically inspired. I wrote 2 songs today that I really like, but then my G string on my guitar snapped and missed my eye by about 0.5cm and so I had to stop and then my phone and iPad filled up so I couldn’t make any more recordings even after I moved onto piano and wrote the 2nd song. I like the songs I wrote and I feel motivated because me and my sister made some crazy goals and I’m determined to achieve them! It’s just there isn’t any romance in my life but hey I don’t think there ever has been… Just liars, cheats, games, mess, drama, playing, etc. I’ve had good times and bad but never real romance if such a thing even exists in the whims of some peoples minds. Not in mine. Either way, I’m not going to meet any attractive guys. And if I do, what does it matter they won’t talk to me or see me again. I don’t matter. Plus ok no one is going to want to talk to me the way I look atm. I look so bad and it makes me anxious to go out in public but I have to because it’s fucking reading and I’ve spent like £500 on the tickets for me and my friend and all the camping stuff anyone else going?

To wish you were someone else
is to waste the person you are.

Kurt Cobain (via


I’ve been on the road with my sister for the past two weeks in search of beautiful places. We’ve gone all over Oregon and Northern California, seeing some of the most amazing lakes, mountains, rivers, beaches, and forests. The world is so full of beauty. Allow nature to fill you up when you feel loneliness or fear. We are all so lucky to live on such a beautiful planet. 

mostly nature

Sad/Bands/B&W blog

Expect nothing and accept everything and you will never be disappointed.


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